Chemo round 1 kicked my a**

Sorry it’s been a bit since my last update. I have to admit round 1 of chemo kicked my butt and my spirit . I guess I wasn’t fully prepared for the side-effects. I got all the brochures and did all the reading but in my mind I wasn’t going to be one of the folks that got sick, I was so wrong ! 
I pictured the drugs as invading my body like stealth assassins or navy seals to take out the cancer cells with precision but instead got a crazy high school shooter just randomly shooting at my cells in site . I am sorry if that offends anyone just relating my truth. 
Oh and did I mention the night sweats which I would say challenged my past menopausal ones of several years ago . Fan on fan off , blankets on blankets off !  I started the chemo dehydrated and with diarrhea still in full force and got worse . Dehydration is a real deal maker . I got a bit confused with my fluid intake ( quite poor maybe 750 ml in 24 hours or less ) and took wrong meds just a real sh** show actually . Ken was great and called the Cross to say I was not doing well and they brought me in for some fluid (thanks Beth for the rides )
WARNING more bowel talk ahead 
I improved after that and things settled for a day or so then the diarrhea turned to constipation ! I don’t know which is worse 7 weeks of diarrhea or 2 -3 days of very painful constipation ! Called the Cross again and got more meds and advise and pulled out the heating pad .
I hate to admit this but when I started this little blog I promised myself I would be honest . I felt being open and raw would be the best way to record my journey and to hopefully help someone else at some point . 
This first chemo week was so bad ,that I really felt like asking the Dr what would happen if I didn’t do the chemo ?  How long would I have ? What would I be able to accomplish in that time? Would it be enough ? That same night my Dad came to me in my dreams once again and hugged me and said ‘ you have this ,you can do it ‘ So onto round 2 !